dainty.world

missing you was never easy;

2010-06-03T02:24:00.001-07:00

will it help, really?
if I cried and yearn for you every night?

been away for far too long

2010-05-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

i made a promise not to jump
and abandon,

i guess i forgot the promises.

nothing is better than being back here.

2009-11-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

been a crazy month,
with a blink,
wa hey, its November now.

I love November.
because it marks a new beginning soon,

I love November
because of the weather,

I love November
because I can't wait for dreamy Christmas

I absolutely adore November,
because all my fav people;
share their birthday month with me.

but that also mean, i hate it because I am practically going broke.

which may make me not like November anytime soon.

lol*

Finally, I have been waiting so long.

2009-10-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

Seen you once in Hongkong
and loved how you bring up the crowd.

Congrats on this new one,
after so long, its like a finally!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSWb-9DKFmI

you managed to get this hit spinning in my head
ever since the first day.

this gotta stop.

help?

I'll be fine;

2009-10-04T07:17:00.000-07:00

On and on the pain goes on
And it wouldn't
just wouldn't die
我竟遠比想像中軟弱且無能為力對你的眼神選擇了逃避
恨自己
恨自己

On and on the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就讓我被悔不當初的罪惡吞去懲罰過後能否帶來解脫
I'll be fine
I'll be fine

So many cries
listening to God
讓堅強不只是種偽裝

So many lies
listening to you
天亮後
I will be fine

On and on the pain goes on
and I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能夠不再空虛最後信念
別放棄

I will be fine
I will be fine

My Love

2009-09-05T09:58:00.000-07:00

Officially addicted.

People walk in out of your life, who are those that stays;

2009-08-22T05:26:00.000-07:00

have you ever sit down
and count how many true friends are in your list?
in your facebook, there could be 150 people in it,
or more,

but how many in there among all those,
are your true friends.

Could you name them?

Can you actually recall
when you identify them as your true friend,

what did they do to get that spot in your heart.

How many of them shared their feelings with you in the past
and they just don't do that any more

How many of them listen to you,
when you are happy and sad and angry
and be there for you,
but never let you know
when they are crying to their own problems

How many of them were
so so so close to you before
and now they are just like a cotton candy thread
blurred in your memory

Have you ever remembered you believed
she/he could and will be your best friend forever,

but forever never did come.

ever since, they have conveniently forgotten about you
that one fine day and
abandon you for their new "IN" friends or their bgr.

I have about less than 10 of friends that
were true to me,
while I am to them.

How about you?

Typhoon Morakat, Look what you have done. Be ashamed of yourself, be very ashamed!

2009-08-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

When you made a sudden drop of 2m rain
and caused an unpleasant disaster overnight.

did you realised,

there are no more
sounds of laughters,
or sights of little childrens running around.

it was replaced by the sounds of cries and anguish.
and sights of unpleasants muds and overflowed of water.

the once beautiful island in Taiwan was ruined.
just because of your impulse drop.

the school bells hadn't rang for days.
though kids may detest waking up early in the morning to school,
this is just not the way to bring their schools down.

you caused a commotion in the Taiwan entertainment industry
after you decided to move on to China.

the media should have focus more on collecting donations for the victims of your game,
but well, they decided to focus even more on
the sum of donations from celebrities.

whcih lead me into thinking,
is that even important?

so what if they donated lesser than their previous times?

someone should stand up and asked the media

"How much did you donated then?"

and you Typhoon Morakat.
I hope your sister, brother or any relatives of yours
do not come back next year.

or ever.

You need to,

2009-07-27T07:45:00.000-07:00

twitter with me.

NOW!

The Craze,

2009-07-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

Met up with Thia,

like finally after we pulled a disappearance act

on one another for such a long time.

The last we spent a day together

doing what we do best,

cam whoring,

was when the Fahrenheit guys were in town.

She love my hotel room, back then

and so did Jamieee.

Anyway. Two of us went ION.

and it wasn't that much of a hype

like how everyone is so excited over it.

We, however, love the toilet

more than any 'atas' brands

that is in ION.

I dunno.

Shopping in town just doesn't make me hyper any more.

I have to shamlessly admit.

I am a bugis girl village now.

and still addicted to online indulgence.

damn.

Home Sweet Home;

2009-07-18T03:28:00.000-07:00

now scurry off to buy 4d;

2009-07-11T21:36:00.000-07:00

Woke up from an early morning call,
bathed and did the most amazing thing ever.
Yes, Fiza actually went downstairs
to
EXERCISE. and GETFIT.

Ok shut up for anyone
to have any comments now.

I did housework, water the plant all
early in the morning.
I swear my mom was impressed.
but she refused to give any compliments.

Indulgz'ed and town'ed last night.
Worst night ever.
The rain came unexpectedly,
and we got caught in the middle of nowhere
after dinner.

Cabbed down to town'ed
finally after half an hour
standing there looking at the pouring rain
and trying to flag a cab
and in between
awed at a family of six that came out
from a small little car.

one by one ...

ok. that is pure random.
I mean, we do get bored looking at the rain right
for half an hour?

Everything is good now.
I am leading normal life.

I made an effort to meet up with
friends who I have not seen for ages
when once upon a time,
I was leading an abnormal life.

The EP preorders are doing well.
Online business has stop
due to other factors,
but I swear that is temporarily,
because we are making it all better.

Now. the next thing. I need
is to generate money for myself.

for jamie. for eileen.

I am also tempted.
to go to the zoo.
to the night safari.
and everywhere else in Singapore
that I can think of.

See. I am having too much free time
tt I am thinking about this.

anyone wants to give me a part time job?

All Time Favourites;

2009-07-04T09:45:00.000-07:00

Sexy Justin;

Namie The Queen of J-HipHop;

and Michael Jackson,

They made it to my top favourites performers, of all time.
Simply because,
when they dance,
no one else can do it
the way they did it.

2009-06-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

I am determined
to make changes
in my life,
concentrating on only important things.

Officially

2009-05-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

I am upset.

things have not been going well lately.

I need to really have a good cry over everything.

but,

who can guarantee, even after a good cry,

I may able to forget everything?

All Time Favs

2009-04-25T08:31:00.000-07:00

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life

The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as suchI know
I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

What happen to these times;

2009-04-18T09:37:00.000-07:00

back then, life seemed to be so carefree.
like I wonder where did I get all the money to travel
as and when I like?

the first time I went to bangkok,
I was glad I made it with my favouritest gang.
well, except that the most important member
couldn't make it.
but still, it was an awesome trip.

shopping was heaven,
but I didnt manage to get anything nice and cheap.
instead, i have gotten myself a bag that cost like erm, 2000baht?

when the rest of them got stuffs like
for; 100 baht, 500baht?

@ Chatuchak, sunglasses galore.
it was so ridiculous at how perfect he look with every single shades he put on.
I am serious.

with the rockstar, waiting for lunch at some foodstall.

its the bed, Itellyou. we didnt want to get out of the room at all, bcos of the bouncy bed.

it was an impulsive trip.

that I never did regret.

it was like a suggestion at 7am in the mornin'

by him who called, waking me up from sleep.

and by 10am, everyone confirmed their status

and off to bangkok we go, the next thing we know.

i want do such thing again,

it was, erm fun.

and not so fun for my weak heart parents.

Make it better;

2009-04-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

its been months ever since 2009 first started.
decisions were made, secrets were kept and now with a blink of eyes,
its almost half year soon.

there were regrets yet I chose to think positively and to move on.
there were happiness yet at times I felt the world is going to end soon,
there were sadness yet at times I felt,
with just a simple word, the friends I am with, I could be happy even if it was just that 5 seconds.
there were frustrations all the time yet most of the times, I know I am ok once I let it all out.

it usually will just end up back to square 1.

how many times you have tried to prove to someone and redeem yourself, but it fail badly
and people around you are just trying to be a wet blanket over and over again?
how many times you have tried to please someone and all you received were just criticisms and discouragements?

Different people view and handle all obstacles differently,
i smile and ignore people and words
that
I chose to ignore

you frown and absorb
every single criticisms that possibly reach your ears.

one thing I have learnt from a best friend of mine,
"you cannot stop people from talking behind your back."

this simple sentence from him made me move on and never look back.

upon receiving criticisms, appreciate the people around that stand by you,
and not fret over worthless comments that people made about you.

what does all these people know?

Life have always been up and down. I have made foolish and reckless decisions time and time again.
Some which I was hapy with,
and
some which I regret but I remind myself not to even mention the word regret.

At the end of the day, honestly, what can I do?

in this cruel society, i am forced to endure all nonsense that was thrown to me.
don't tell me, this is fate.

I'll throw it back in your face that,

I hate fate.

Sigh;

2009-04-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

The Perfect Sunday

2009-04-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

As the winds blew gently on my face,
I didnt mind at all,
that the damn scorching sun
was in fact staring back at me.

Little kids running around,
young couples strolling
hand in hands,
with their dogs latched
behaving like a clever understanding pet
who gave their owners a privacy on their own.

this could be the only place
that I do not shun and run for my life
when I see these doggies.

Now if only the doggies in Singapore
are not such hyperactive
and behave like they never see strangers before.

Troubles are easily swayed away
each time I am here.

Strolling down
the Old Streets Lane,
with you , was something
I should cherished.

For who knows,
when else,
we could be walking down that streets
with such a carefree attitude,
hands in hands.

I love watching the sunset and that classic view of the 'sampans'

a view, that I will seldom see in Singapore

lovely little kids that entertained us while waiting for our dinner.

did i tell you i love mango?

great foods. great ambience. great service. great music.

Can you believe it? When this photo was taken, it was only like 7pm in the evening. it look like it already turned 11pm, isn't it?

The well known, Lover's bridge in Danshui.

Couples come here for camwhoring

and enjoying the sunset view

and the lighting up of the bridge daily at about 5plus in the evening.

Never come here on Monday though, it is too quiet. Sunday, however will be purrfecttt..

Just for an insider info,

Jay Chou love danshui too

for its scenery.

His movie, "Secret" had most of the parts filmed here,

and his "Rainbow" mv too.

Now you know why I love Danshui!!!

I am strong;

2009-03-09T10:08:00.000-07:00

i have made a decision,
and what ever obstacles come next,
I hope I can overcome it.

I miss Ah Chew desert stall!

- Someone please bring me to ahchew soon.

Today;

2009-03-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

Today I Will Make A Difference

I will begin by controlling my thoughts. A person is the product of his thoughts.

I want to be happy and hopeful. Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful.

I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances. I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines, and traffic jams be my masters.

I will avoid negativism and gossip. Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark.

Today I will make a difference.

I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity.

I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom.

I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. I will drink each minute as though it is my last.

When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever.

While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving.

I will not let past failures haunt me. Even though my life is scarred with mistakes, I refuse to rummage through my trash heap of failures.

I will admit them. I will correct them. I will press on.

Victoriously. No failure is fatal. It's OK to stumble... I will get up.

It's OK to fail...I will rise again.

I will spend time with those I love. A man can own the world but be poor for the lack of love.

A man can own nothing and yet be wealthy in relationships. Today I will spend at least five minutes with the significant people in my world.

Five quality minutes of talking or hugging or thanking or listening. Five undiluted minutes with my love, friends and new neighbours.

Today I will make a difference.

- now the only thing to do is to actually get off the bed, and get into doing all the above.

Priceless

2009-02-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

當時怎麼愛上你的　
朋友說的　
我微笑聽著
愛情的劇本原來就沒規則
現在變不重要了　
結局揭曉了
後來當朋友　
你我也只是說說

訓練成好演員的我　
說不遺憾是騙人的　
那些愛與不愛　
還在整理著　
我明白的　
只是誰來導演呢　

勇敢是你教的　
眼痊O我的　
快樂都假的

我想找個答案　
如果愛被出賣　
到最後　
非賣品有什麼剩下　太好強　又太傻　受了傷　當贈品留下　

包裝的堅強　笑的那麼自然　悲傷也放進廚窗

愛沒有答案　再倔強　再不放　到最後　被看穿　一個人逞強　
說不恨　是騙人　
我不再隱瞞愛的傷痕　
不捨轉過身　
不必回頭地承認　
非賣品是愛最美的靈魂

Busy.

2009-02-22T11:01:00.000-08:00

exam fever.
i wonder if I could cope with alot of stuffs,
going on now at the moment.

i have slackened alot,
projects and assignments are all delayed.
I ought to be ashamed
seriously.

I have been too busy,
then again,
who am I kidding?

I was just busy in being lazy.
and getting into trouble
by falling in love
that I have neglected, abandoning my responsibilities.

Aiming at a new week
to start my revision,
I have packed the whole week tight.

Revision with Eileen,
followed by a photo shoot.
Though I am not really sure,
if revision actually will happen.

I am more looking forward for subway in the morning.

its 3:38am, i better really get out from here.

" ...towards the road to happiness,
there are too many diverted roads.
we might just end up getting lost.
but, we did promise each other
that we wouldn't back out..."

- and i am really crossing my fingers for it.

27's

2009-02-14T19:12:00.000-08:00

1. I was born in Nov 27th, and it was a love-hate relationship. Everyone remember the date, but was too broke to buy a present for me.

2.Prior to that, at times, I wish my birthday falls on 30th Nov, instead. but I doesnt like the number 30. Ok, what ever.

3. I hate the sun. I like the wind.

4. Travelling have always been a part of my interest,

5. Being able to travel to Venice, is my dream.

6. I am addicted to Ktv-ing and once i went every week regularly without fail. even when i am flat broke.

7. I grew up watching/listening/studying Mandarin, and I really think I am a Chinese soul trapped in a Malay body.

8. I appreciate every single things that others does for me, butI just doesnt know how to say it out, other than a simple 'thank you.' In return, i do special things for them unexpectedly.

9. My ex died, when I was 18. and I only found out recently.

10. I smile to cover my sadness. I cry only when I am alone in my room.

11. I have a best friend who is perfect, but he is weird.

12. It seemed my life at this point of time are only occupied with you, and I hate it.

13. Did I mention, I am someone who idolise freedom?

14. I get touched easily. Over stupid things. Like erm, Letters? Cards?

15. The last time that I cried buckets was when I received a letter written in a bit of Mandarin topped up with English.

16. I like to collect pretty pretty journal books. I have over like 20 of them and never used any of them before.

17. I am a cab whore. and I seriously need to stop cabbing everywhere I go.

18. The most romantic thing someone ever did was asking me to accompany him to a basket ball court because he wanted to shoot some hoops. Shooting hoops was a lie; the court was decorated with loads of balloons and we had breakfast in the middle of the court. at 10am in the morning.

19. I suspect my phone bills from this month onwards will never be at $80 anymore. It will be definitely be more than $100.

20. if I could someone a question now, I would ask him, "Why me?" but then again I did, and the answer is the same. and I never got around to why I can't stop asking.

21. Then I came up with an answer. I think I am still in a shock. and it has been a month.

22. I like photography and love lomography

23. There are probably about ten over friends of mine waiting for me to set a date to meet up with them, before they goes back to Australia, start their attachment and having exams. We have discussed over this way back in November, and I still havent get around to meeting anyone on the list.

24. Yes. I am lazy.

25. Ed never can understand why I like to close the Msn window every single time after each reply to anyone especially him. And after that I get lost in the conversation and it irritates him that I kept asking, "huh, what did we just talk about?"

26. erm, i think i might be in love? but i do think being love is trouble for now.

27. I would wish to commit suicide now because i have a huge rashes all over my face.

I am tired,

2009-02-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

these tears,
i shouldnt have let it roll past midnight

to the extend that i put my phone
to a rest, the whole night,
you ought to know that
i was hurt badly.

simple word,
hurled when angry
might seemed nothing serious,

but to me,
it was more than enough
to make me think
twice about everything.

fragile, vulnerability,
only people closer
can really see
that pathetic side of me.

i thought you were
one of them,

but i guess i was wrong.

I think i am addicted.

2009-01-28T05:13:00.000-08:00

i am hooked.

off to Ktv again tonight.

I should really stop. but I can't!

Argh!!!

Fate Sure Is Playful;

2009-01-27T19:35:00.000-08:00

On the streets, you walked with the many people that you called strangers.
but one will never notice exactly who are the people around them.

no matter how many people you have walked past,
how many there were,
the miraculous thing is that,
within so many of them,
within one of them,
he/she could be your prince/princess.
he/she could be a friend that you made, in years to come,

when you met,
it was upon realising that you have so many similar interests,

maybe,
liking a particular sentence in a story book,
or liking the same track, in maybe a Jay Chou's album,
or liking the same beverage from Starbucks,

fate never fail to play us around.
look around you, and wonder.

those friends that are around you,
how did you get to know them?
were they once,
one of them that you ever walked past?

have you ever wonder?

i do, all the time.

and realized Fate plays and fools me all the time.

;)

p/s:

to a friend that is always advicing me, Its fated somehow like how you always put it. Enjoy your taiwan trip this 10 days. You deserved that break of yours, and seeing your baby'.

to you, who plays a part in the fate. I am touched, seriously. But, "I DID NOT CAUSE YOU TO LOSE SLEEP. " Cheerios!

The Sweet Ol' Savouries

2009-01-26T05:26:00.000-08:00

an addictive indulgence;

we had

made me miss (already) the fresh air

that we never had in sunny singapore.

yours truly; the queen and the princess;

I can't wait but to anticipate our next trip together again.

Loves.

2009-01-25T06:58:00.000-08:00

Concentrate, Fi. Concentrate.

2009-01-22T21:46:00.000-08:00

In this path
that you introduced me
a week ago

I have seen
your sincerity;
your charm;
your aptitude;

your temper;
your strengths
your weaknesses.

we were so comfortable with each other
yet there are things we both are hiding from each other
and we realized it, don't we?

when,
will we be very honest to one another,
i have no idea.

fact that both of us were hurt before,
made us understood each other completely.

I am beginning to think its a rebounced path

for us

that we have taken blindly.

we just needed someone and
that just happen to us coming along,
entwining each other path.

I am not complaining.
I do find you are interesting for your own rights.

but I am very scared

I get so dependent on you
that I will lost touch of
what is and what is not.

I am determined

not to mislead you,
but somehow,

I think you are playing that role
and I am trying very hard

not to fall for that actor in you.

Suddenly. I miss my true self.

Variations

2009-01-19T19:17:00.000-08:00

Looking out of the window,
Into the sky,
A vast of clouds
Have naturally become a daily affair.

At times, I see cotton wools formed up there,
At times, I see huge pile of blankets on top of one another,

At times, the sky were so clear
That I began to wonder,
Where have the clouds been?

I wonder, at another part of the globe,
Is there someone else like me?
Who would admire the clouds, daily without fail?

I wonder, if the clouds that
He is looking at,
Is it the same as mine?

Was it beautiful?
Or it was just so-so.

Looking up there,
Makes me forget my worries, burdens everything

And when attention was diverted back to the ground,
Reality sets back.

It is a shame.

It's the weather, I tell ya'

2009-01-14T16:49:00.000-08:00

these days,
I have allowed my soul
swallowed shamelessly into
the guilt of laziness built in between.

maybe its the chilly weather,
that made me refused to jump out of bed,
or even steps out of the house.

I ought to be ashamed of such behavior.

i spent my times online, nowadays,
with project researches, you'tubing,
in between,
i revamped the room,
still yet to be completed.

the walls that need painting ever since one year ago
are still in tact with that purple paint.

i know. i am lazy.
but still.
hey, i did some shifting with the desk
and everything else
and clear the mess out of the floor.

all by myself. i am proud of it.
people like douglas, niki, kun' will be too,
if they know.

but of course, they wont say it out.
they will be too shy to stubbornly admit.

anyway. a picture of my utmost fav of all times;

he's undeniably cute.

period.

It is a lonesome Sunday,

2009-01-11T00:05:00.000-08:00

the noises we made were no longer there,
instead,
all that remains were photographs
to relive the memories,
which,
all these while are kept within me,
safely

me: Ben, from far far away, you look very handsome. very style.
him (walking away from me): ok from now onwards, i will stand this far from you.

the speech and behavior of these people were gracious and courtly;

I noticed that they were good and serious listeners

when anybody was telling anything;

she, in the above picture,

is one of them.

the rest of these,

are the fun and laughters of 2008

that I had, despite the depression mode

which landed

upon me, one summer before.

behold, people, and believe,

they are the people

that got me out of

my darkest moments.

they are all

severely missed.

honestly.

Launched...

2009-01-06T18:11:00.001-08:00

It is only the beginning part of the year,
and
I am tied up with already so many things.

I am not complaining,
it is,
the path I chose.

and not to mention,
I am severely broke, now.

steph is back from aust, so is debbie and esther.
Xuan coming back this january,
so, tell me, am i not supposed to be excited?

work is giving me problems,
school issues too,
but i think i can handle it well,
since,
well, wretched 2008 did leave me stronger.

something for me to look forward to,
now,
its the official launch of Oohmammamia

i am excited!

2009-01-01T06:52:00.000-08:00

2008 has been full up and downs for me;
endless overseas trips in a year,
new environement, pursuing my interest in tourism,
made a lot of new interesting friends,
casted few of them away,
and vow never to let them in my life anymore,

enough of the hurts, and the pains
they gave.

2009;
i expect a vicious cycle;
decisions awaits for me to be made,
overcoming setbacks, handling depressions,

like what ariel said,
i hope 2009 be kinder to us.

fingers crossed.

i ended my wretch 2008, with eileen.

2009 will be more of her, stephy, jamie.
and of cos,
Joc, Doug, Ezra and Jason.

and, the launch of an online store.

now, that is something to look out for.

I am sorry I was too late

2008-12-28T01:27:00.000-08:00

in those days;

it was you and me at the back of the class,
barely could hear anything that the teacher was saying.

those days, the endless phone calls seemed ridiculous now,
but somehow, we always have so much to talk about.

the memories;
from you biting of your lips till it bleed profusely,
and then stupidly asking for tissues after that,
transparent ear studs to trick the eye of those teachers;
arts lesson where we tag team in dealing with the teacher;
who apparently hated us alot,
to this once, when you got so angry that you shock the whole class,
by walking out of the class, after a huge argument with the teacher,

those memories are still freshly intact in my mind.

the only regret was;
that was the last i saw you ever.
the argument; and you walked out of class.

and it is definitely the very last.

all these years,
i have been wondering how you have been doing;
i asked people that could possibly have known you,
and the asnwers were all the same; they doesnt know.
but i didnt have the courage to ask people who ACTUALLY knew you.

bcos those days, it was complicated.
i was young to be brave. she was young to be sensible.

when i was informed of it today,
that I could never see you again,
i was shocked. yet i smiled. i was calmed.

then on the way home, it dwell upon me;
that yes you are gone.

and now while I am typing this,
my tears, non-stop keep rolling down.

all these years;
I wonder and wonder
if one day we will ever meet again.
what will I say to you when we do happen to meet again.
what will be your first word when you see me...

i guess,
i can stop wondering now.

for,
i already know what I am going to say.

i miss you, loads.
others might not known it,
but we have our little secret
hidden and buried forever
for now.

if i ever knew,
when you walked out that classroom door
on that particular afternoon,
after the heated argument with the teacher,
i would want to turn back time;

i would want to be the one who pull you,
and
at least comforted you, calming you down.

and not just sit there,
stunned watching your back turned on us, walking out.

it was an awful feeling now.

since that was the last, very last i seen of you.

"You will always be remembered for your warm heart, for being a humorous and charming person ever, for your big smile.... I am sorry, really, that I found out way too late about it... you will always be loved. Rest In Peace, Simon Junior."

spread the love...

2008-12-24T07:09:00.000-08:00

this year, I have cast aside those funny little looking stuffs on my head.

I didnt miss it, i swear.

and I am glad that I will never have to wear it ever again, while at work.

hopefully,
crossing my fingers.

merry christmas, people!

2008-12-06T09:40:00.000-08:00

i wish i could just sit at home, on this lazy sunday afternoon,
writing my journal,
clearing the mess in my room.

i wish i could spend this afternoon with you,
watching old movies and do what we do the best;
talking non stops about anything,
with loads of foods, tidbits
on the table.

but,
unfortunately, you are far away in another country,
working your ass off
and i am stuck here in sunny singapore,
with a gloomy superior to face later.

dreads.

.when you simply just can't concentrate,

2008-11-28T21:05:00.000-08:00

the sound of the vehicles outside are making me annoyed.
really, i should have been studying,
but not only i glued my eyes on youtube all this while,
surfing the net, checking emails,
and doing nonsensical stuffs online,
when i can do it all after i really have completed my exams,
i did the most random things of all.

and yes, blogspot.com,

that is to sign up with you once again.

i should be ashamed of myself.

period.