Make it better;

its been months ever since 2009 first started.
decisions were made, secrets were kept and now with a blink of eyes,
its almost half year soon.


there were regrets yet I chose to think positively and to move on.
there were happiness yet at times I felt the world is going to end soon,
there were sadness yet at times I felt,
with just a simple word, the friends I am with, I could be happy even if it was just that 5 seconds.
there were frustrations all the time yet most of the times, I know I am ok once I let it all out.


it usually will just end up back to square 1.


how many times you have tried to prove to someone and redeem yourself, but it fail badly
and people around you are just trying to be a wet blanket over and over again?
how many times you have tried to please someone and all you received were just criticisms and discouragements?


Different people view and handle all obstacles differently,
i smile and ignore people and words
that
I chose to ignore


you frown and absorb
every single criticisms that possibly reach your ears.


one thing I have learnt from a best friend of mine,
"you cannot stop people from talking behind your back."


this simple sentence from him made me move on and never look back.


upon receiving criticisms, appreciate the people around that stand by you,
and not fret over worthless comments that people made about you.


what does all these people know?


Life have always been up and down. I have made foolish and reckless decisions time and time again.
Some which I was hapy with,
and
some which I regret but I remind myself not to even mention the word regret.

At the end of the day, honestly, what can I do?

in this cruel society, i am forced to endure all nonsense that was thrown to me.
don't tell me, this is fate.

I'll throw it back in your face that,


I hate fate.